[Philly]

John, sorry for your loss bro - i know its hard but you will pull through.
Like others have said, try and keep busy and let it out when you need to as often as you need to.

I lost my father when I was a young kid to a heart attack, and my grandfather took on the role of "father". I recently lost him as well and like Jess, I never really got to grieve because I had to stay strong for my Mom and my brothers. I can tell you, you never really get over it, but we find ways to cope - im sure you will too! Best of luck to you and your family! Stay strong!