I am 21 and I feel exactly like you alot of the time.
I had it rough growing up, bad family situations, I have always found it hard to make new friends because I have never fit in with the rest of the group. I don't classify myself as a prep and I am not a punk, and I am not a nerd, and around here you have to be in one of the groups or you just don't fit. I have always felt like an outcast, sure I get along with almost everyone and can talk to any clique of people but it all ends there.
I have had suicidal thoughts, and have been on edge several times mainly because I felt alone and that no one cared. I never went through with it and I think a big part of it was that I broke down and begged God for mercy. I am not saying that is what anyone should do but it worked for me.
I will say that life has gotten alot better for me, over the past 1-2 years and I can gurantee that yours will too. Just hang in there, think positively and try to surround yourself with people that care about you.
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